Ryan Adams has vowed to return to music in his first social media posts since multiple women accused him of sexual and psychological abuse.
In a report published in The New York Times in February (19), the indie rocker, 44, was accused of committing acts ranging from emotional manipulation to sexual misconduct and harassment by ex-wife Mandy Moore and singer-songwriter Phoebe Bridgers, among others.
The scandal caused Ryan to shelve plans for three albums and a tour, but he returned to Instagram on Friday night, vowing to tell “the truth” about his life, work on new music and return to touring.
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“I have a lot to say. I am going to. Soon. Because the truth matters. It’s what matters most. I know who I am. What I am. It's time people know. Past time. All the beauty in a life cannot be reduced to rubble for confusion, ignoring truths that destroy all the good in us. This madness and misunderstanding. There’s enough of that in this world My work was always meant to be a map for the lost. I’ve tried my best to be open and accountable. Not a billboard. I mean, maybe for being flawed. I’ve always wanted to help. I’m trying. So, soon… because it’s time to get back to what I do best. I’m here for the music, for the love and for making things better. I didn’t have an easy life. I lost my brother the day the Prisoner Tour ended. Every night wondering if he would be alive. He was proud of me. My family and my friends were there for that. And so many great fans. For the Meineres community who suffer every day. This music was for then. It mattered. And that was always for it to help. So let’s do that. THAT will matter. The amends made and things lost in the noise, that should’ve mattered too. I want to be a part of that healing. To go play have some great shows and put out these badass records. Believe Women. Believe Truth. But never give up on being part of solutions, and healing. I’ve lost friends who have passed away in this time of self reflection and silence. I can’t be like that. There’s been too much that mattered. Thank you for your kindness, your support and for this time I needed to decide how I could be a part of a better tomorrow for everybody. Sometimes that peace comes from opening yourself up. That’s who I want to be. Here’s to that. With love and with faith- In all of us and our best and our faults RA
After sharing a clip from I’m Sorry and I Love You, a track from one of his abandoned albums, he wrote in another post: “I have a lot to say. I am going to. Soon. Because the truth matters. It’s what matters most. I know who I am. What I am. It’s time people know. Past time.”
Confirming he wanted to return to music, he added: “So, soon… because it’s time to get back to what I do best. I’m here for the music, for the love and for making things better.”
In the emotional post, he also referenced his battle with Meniere’s disease, and the death of his brother Chris in 2017.
The shamed star also cryptically wrote, “Believe Women. Believe Truth. But never give up on being part of solutions, and healing,” and continued, “Sometimes that peace comes from opening yourself up. That’s who I want to be.”
Following The New York Times report, agents from America’s Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI) opened an investigation into allegations he sent explicit texts to an underage fan. Adams has strenuously denied the accusations.
His ex-wife Mandy, who announced their split in 2015, accused him of being psychologically manipulative and harming her music career during their marriage. Fellow musicians Liz Phair and Karen Elson have also accused him of unspecified misconduct.